A new opening.

Hell long time didnt update my bloody blog
So this will be a quite long post, maybe? lazy then less.
As you guys know I worked at sakae sushi as server,
quite exhausted but fun! It's a great experience for me, beginner.
I love there, peoples there are damn friendly and good.
So maybe next year holiday go there too? hehe.
And then changed job to work as promoter.
Cause mum says it's more relax and not so tiring so yea, changed.
I still miss them, sakae workers, so much.

Anddd, went IOI mall with clovis, watched skyfall. 
Theme song by Adele damn nice. And ehherm eherrm =P 
Had a nice day too, happy enough! 
Wish to hang out with him againnn. =] 
Sleep well goodnight guys. Muacks xoxo hehe.

Muacks .

Seriously very very very wayy too long didnt update

BECAUSE trials and mum confiscated the modem recently. z

And PMR soon ! omg just , slow down a little.

I need to cover up my science, kh, geography, chinese...

Especially HISTORY. Rachael so call it pure shits.

I dont know how peoples out ther score A for history, I dont get it

Yeah smart, and have good brains to memorize all...Boring -.-

If can... I really want to be back with him. 

Miss him so much. Those times... cuddle, hugs, eye to eye. 

Its never easy to forget, its HARD, super duper HARD.

Constantly thinking bout you everyday. Well you cant stop that right?

If can get back with him, I swear I will be HONEST . 

Cause I dont wanna lose him anymore . No more

But , IF i can get back with him la, IF  T_____T 

Sei Blendun. Why no reply de, from 11.03-11.45 now,

still dont want replyy. YER. YERRRRR. 

Wondering what's in your mind, I thought you wanna know answer de?

Or the question's person is not me O__________________O . omg

Dont know la @@ just straight ask only, but you no reply WOH.

And tomorow Seminar at Uni Malaya. Wish me luck? 

Well, have a good night peeps.  

我在乎你

Another tough day. Again 为情而烦了, 因为还在乎

我感冒了，而且今天胃痛，痛到很厉害的那种

第二次那么厉害，痛一个钟头，*狂流泪

可是我却在Jia Jun 家赢了不少钱， 可还是很痛*

我要哭了啦！我觉得我被冤枉啊...

我跟他只是朋友却给他讲到...好像很够力

他，只是我朋友。他，好心陪我罢了。

我不懂你看到了什么，可是我跟他绝对没东西！= =

虽然我看到你跟她谈很多，是人的都会吃 __

可是我知道你们是朋友，所以我不多说.

"I'm in pieces. Im gonna fix it myself and your gonna pay . " 

I dont wanna write that 3 O. #Haiz

Sad and pissed. Broken and need to be strong.

其实... 蛮想和你找个地方，跟你谈。

不然真的是会越想越多，really lack communication.

我不懂为什么事情变得那么那么的糟...

如果我说，我真的真的真的真的很喜欢你

你还会相信吗？ 我觉得我现在给你的印象是：骗子

说真的，我从来没有后悔喜欢上你

Because I have that one true feelings to you the most.

给你当骗子来看，已经把我的自尊给踏扁

他现在应该不爽我吧？ 应该。

哎哟我惨了，第一次喜欢一个人到那么深。

Sorpoh 都会说以前我很潇洒，所忘记他们就会忘记的

这一次啊... 好难放弃。现在的感觉比死去的感觉还难受

不懂啦，我没死过！

ish

12/6/2012

Some stupid brainless poor retards stole my money at school

Think back also angry. what the hell la. 

Just gone toilet and comb my hair and my wallet taken by some bastards

I know, shouldent put my bag outside, 

but hell i will expect this kind of thing happen ma lol.

Haih, RM170 . you're far far awayyyy *sings

14/6/2012

Today, after eat lunch at Rishadh. Go BK5 with Jiale and Sasa.

After that saw got 1 lengzai come out from one car with Wenloong them.

That lengzai quite like 外国人, brown eyes. white skin. those features la.

Thennn we plan to head back to school.

The Amo lang's like pretending walking near to us, with his friend.

Lol i was like : This is bad -_____- 

He tap jiale's shoulder ask : What's your name? 

Jiale sure say : Jiale . 

He say: Im Michael, he's Jimmy.

And then he ask: Eh, baju merah tu ur gf ke? Boleh pinjam? 

I was thinking, pinjam ur head la. lol. IM NOT STUFF lo.

Both comes to me, ask. apa name kamu? Lawa betul la.

Lol, quite happy. Flattered. But im not stupid.

Answered questions they've asked EXCEPT PHONE NUMBER.

Smart dao lol :D Then the Michael took my fan away liao  

He say: Bagi saya kan? 

I just nods but heart says nooooo #sobs

Haaaaah ! I remember, the Jimmy say. Panas kan? 

Then i say: yea, panas. And i put my both hand to my cheeks.

He say : Adui comel sangat la weih. hahaha

Thank you thank you lol. hahaaaaa. But still Im not stupid.

Quite a day. hope never see them again. lol

_________________________________________________________________________

He say I seems happy without him worrr.

Treat him like stranger worr... Cause ur face so cold.

I scare I talk with you u just give cold replies. damn awkward.

We say we're friends, but we doesnt seem so.

Hope can talk, laugh and cit-chat like with those sampats.

But you seem like didnt recess with us liao .___.

Rachael say he thought I dont like him le. 

I dont like him I will 坚持 so long ma?

Hmmm, can say. He's the one I loved the most .

Ex ar. bullshits. xD no offence. Really ma. 

Who call him hurt me first , then no like him liao lo.

Jiale got ask: Huh? then you mean you play them?

Of course no lah! I like them. But that time young ma.

Dont know what is love. = = now i know.

Thats why so damn super duper hard to forget him.

Dont say forget, let him down also hard. 

So.................. Just hope can talk. Dislike stranger feeling

Like i no care u u no care me. We strangerss... 

Maybe we havent 了解 each other yet? idk.

TIme proves everything? okayy... 

Shit gtg! BUAI (: 

Update next time.

Just updating

Actually going Pavillion today , but didnt go ady

Tired , and then become no mood go already

Yesterday almost 2.30 sleep, cause watch Music Bank.

Was waiting SNSD TTS sing Twinkle,

last only come out sing de *yawnssss

Nevermind, worth!

Hope Alyssa and Lele have fun at Pavillion!

Ugh, sejarah folio not yet do correction.

Dont know how to do also, and mostly lazy!

And first time eat chelan cherry , sweet chrunchy :D

I know I very 大惊小怪 -.- 

Hmmm, sms with Jb alot. Cause bored + 1sen per text

Friend call me must be happier, 

suggest me hangout and text more with friends...

So I wont keep think certain things...

Nothing much to sayy. 

#Will I ever be the same again?

Im still okay.

他电话被没收了  闲咯。

Meanss cant text. z

I thought his phone will be off and i keep send messages...

Luckily I stopped if not keep write my feelings lol. 

If feels great keep sending messages to some phone

And it wont reply, it's like 不会闷在心里

一直狂 send, 满爽的 .

他昨天的那一句  弄得我心情蛮好的

Haihhh. 

没关系。加油加油加油！

做回自己，不要被打败，还有兄弟姐妹们啊

Gambatehhh. Add oil. Hwaiting ! 

死人头！一直讲他不喜欢我了 

你讲你的直觉很准？ 我不信你咯

我...不信 > <  哼！

讨厌啦... 一直泼我冷水

Hope you have a Good-night & sweet dreamss.

and a good day tomorrow!

#Wonder If you miss me  like I do.

努力的

我想我应该  应该不会爱你

为了要努力  努力的不爱你

所以我让自己那么喜欢你

这样你就不忍心和我分离

我想我讨厌  讨厌冷漠的你

也讨厌美好  美好的那个你

于是我要自己假装不哭泣

所以你才能继续地走下去

我必须说我真的不会喜欢你

我不喜欢你占据我所有思绪

连你的微笑我一直牢记

从早安后的早餐到晚餐后的晚安

别笑了  别笑了  我不会喜欢你

我放过了  我解脱了 你还是在我的眼里

我喜欢了  我厌倦了  影响不了我的呼吸

原来我已经无法自拔  我秘密的爱上你

你不必懂  我真的不会喜欢你

我不想要你因为我乱了情绪

有你的城市下雨也美丽  连黎明后的太阳都像夜里的夜光

别笑了  别笑了  我不会喜欢你

别想了 别想了 我不会喜欢你。

Im crazy

I **** YOU I **** YOU

OMG :(

最近都在听一些个歌

超好听   Inspiring :O 

Written in the stars - Tinie Tempar&Eric Turner

Burns - Jason Chen 

旋转门- Aggie 

还是会- 韦礼安

Usher - climax

Die in your arms - Justin Bieber <3

` If i could just die in your armss, I wouldnt mind 

全部听了超有 Feel 的。

尤其是歌词

我想我应该有伤到你吧 ... hor？

看你面子书的状态，应该是吧

看了都 ... *  *  :(

可是我不能做什么啊...

我去安慰你咩 .______. ?

我都知道是我啦  很 awkward 的嘛

我们也很少讯息了

好 *  * 哦 :(

* * 啊~~~~~~~~~~ :((((

Said move on, what Im doing now?

I kept on looking back and this face :( starts

But I've said became friendss. 

Maybe that's the right choice? Maybe...

I think maybe he's doing fine now?

Hmm...

只能牵挂 ... So  LALALA so much.

Guess you dk what my LALALA means *

#ImSoLostInLove

Damn? =X

Yer, walao.
Facebook, click pictures. click click click
Click dao his. Looked many photos
Stared quite long , hmm...
damn. damn. damn.
I use my hand go and touch the freaking screen
And I freaking go and miss him.
Freaking. But it's the truth lol.
I **** *** and ** ***** .
Haiz.
Damn damn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Stay cool and calm Carmen.
Yeaa, stable... stable. NOT STABLE.
Okay gonna hug my soft Chibi or bolster. -______-
Am gonna get stable.
Well, 10 more minutes and is 5 am.
Stay up late so long, dont know what for.
Tomorrow what time wake up?
Maybeee, afternoon? lol
Text with you, also dont know what to start.
Awkwardddddd !
Try be natural then .____.
Okayyyyyy I freaking go and look and touch again.
-_______________________-
Fine. touch touch touch :DD
Hahahaa.
Good night, sweet dreamsss.
All of YOU.

决定

终于我踏出了那一步

就是选择放开... 

*可想了很久 很久 很久很久 TMD*

我好好好喜欢他

不忍心看着他每一天

都很多东西想

烦恼这个  烦恼那个的 

自从我们在一起之后

好像伤心多过开心的

当然，开心的回忆

永远都不会变的

我和他的回忆没人体会到的

想回去，还真的很甜蜜

在 Mines。在Alyssa家。学校下雨的那天。

在BK5。在教师节那天。 

* hehe :B

我们彼此都需要时间放空自己 

在这几个月里，我们都受了委屈

亲爱的，让你辛苦了

在这时段，希望你能开心地

渡过你的假期和每一天 :)

`Best wishes. And all the best

=X

Everything's so confused. And weird.
Just wanna be myself now.
ANd follow my heart.
And prepare for exam!
Lazy update blog.
If wanna contact me, add my facebook and twitter!
Facebook de down there click.
Twitter is @CarmenHaha1218 =]

Nothing much happen

Finished my Kerja Kursus Sejarah Elemen 1&2
except for hasil kajian. That i dont know how to do.
Wait for MuruGUAma teach, i guess.
Helped Brandon too, luckily he got do =]
*Gladd * 


Tomorow's gonna celebrate Win Seng's birthday
at BK5. Duno Alyssa or Jiale buy the cake laa.
Buy one Baskin robbin de, one Opera cake ar
*Duno spell. And a Zapalang cake la,
for playing de. But i dont want to play cake leh.
Later face kena cream, oily, sticky, dirty, 
Then pimper . NONONONO =]


Haha, miss you already . 

Haih.

Finally, you've said out yourself. 
You said, "can we be friends? Not more and not less than it."
@@................... seriously Im sad.
But after that, i 思考, also not bad de...
Be friends... okay gua. Become normal lorh.
But still, sad =.=
Hmm, Brandy finaly wanna do sejarah project dy.
Cause Muru teaching haha. 
I help him photostat those elemen 1 lor.


Now playing- Thunder by Boys like girls. =']

Hmm

Nothing happens much. Life's been usual.
Everything's normal. Learnt cycle . Hurt my leg.
Sad. Cause my leg no pretty dy.
Sejarah and geografi projects frustrating me.
Stress. Cause next next week tution got exam 
Damn la = = Haven't started study.
Wish won't get bad results. Especially sejarah
Maybe will fail, in tution exam. 
Cause teacher said he'll take from exam pmr papers
Not easy he said, which means HARD. -.-


ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.ILY.

Can't believe everything ends. Wtf.
I don't what Im gonna do or react. 
Treat As normal friend? Of course
Abuthen what, lol.............
Jiale told me to wait for him. 
Sure, but. If he continue cold cold to me.
Sure, one day. I'll give up. 
我不想一直迁就你 
不想什么都是我付出 
Sum tam jor.......... =[
Spechless. Good night.

一首歌 Kinda related to me.
微加幸福 - 郁可唯
Wanna be that girl holding wine !
Drunk sei me bah.

Life Life Life.

Nothing to write.............
I asked him : "Do you love me?"
He replied: " Yes, why do you ask? =]]"
Hohoho, statisfied. 

But still, very damn jealous when he tweets with her.
Not I small gas lar, is everytime tweet banyak banyak er.
My banyer which means, tweets more than I tweet with him.
Dafuqqqq??? xD
They always tweet dao very 很好 keng de worrr. =[
Fine la............................................................ Heng! 
FINEEE LOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

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I LOVE YOU BRANDON GAN.  Muacks Muacks=].

At Port Dickson.

Go there Qing ming, quite boring. 
Went there. Brought my sunglasses
Scare later the smoke poke my eyes then I'll cry.
Still, those smoke went in my eye, cried.
Eye so pain that time. *Sobs

 #LetMeSakai hoho.
Was too boring in car!


Skipp to night evening, go hangout with my Biaomei's friends
All form 2, I form 3 lehh. 
But they call me Carmeh lah - - No jiejie behind =X
Got 1 girl call me bubu车,  HUH ?
She say, cause my name is Car-Men.
她们和可爱一下的  可是一开始
我和他们没有话题聊  渐渐的
就Okay了咯... 
Firstly, Gone pizza hut ate dinner ,
then celebrate Hui Yi's birthday,
Then go bowling. I din't play ,
Cause i wan jimat money , let my brother play lol.
Still it was fun. 
Let the pictures do the talking FWAHH. 

我跟这位38婆比教熟 xD

我表妹=]

Birthday girl =]

烂苹果

宁琦

坏儿童

蓝仪儿

昨天和今天, 都吃了冷和辣的食物  肚子一定痛4啦
希望明天不会咯  please please. 
不想在学校一幅很痛苦的样子


Heheee, Brandy Brandy. 
I miss you so much. But then tomorow can see you already!
Then can stick to your lovable face. =]
他 已成为了 我每天都想见到的人
每天想依靠的人
每天都在想念他的人
他、对我很重要哦


可是 很多东西 我都不知道该怎么表达
哎呀呀不管啦  顺其自然咯
真希望  他能和我分享他的一些生活的点滴
开心或不开心  生气不生气
烦不烦 还是Emo什么的
这些话题、我们都很少聊
我想更了解他勒... 
如果他有什么苦诉可以告诉我的
我愿意听勒  还可以安慰他什么的
焖在心里  不好受的:(


哎呀呀, 顺其自然 ... 咯> <
晚安啦各位.
I Heart you Sweetheart. 
#LivesInMyHeart