Friday, March 2

Killing myself

Argh........
有时你可以把我的心情 弄得 无端端的飞得很高
无端端的跌进谷底 比谷底还深的谷底...



Why am I scrolling ur profile?
I contains memories... 

That i would rather let my tear drop 
but it's just so sweet when i think back

Why am I kept on taking my phone?
Waiting for your damn reply ...


Why am I hoping ur names on my notifications?
Cause that cheers me up whenever how ... 


Why am I waiting for you?
Cause i trust that you're the same too... 



Why am I trying to be cheerful at school?
To show that I'm alright and hope you dont worry

Why some peoples called me to dont think too much but i kept on think?
Cause i care ... and I'm afraid and lost.

Yujian's word:



"Im just saying the truth ok ya see if u 2 really love each other he 


would be there for u"


It really meant... 
I was worrying if He still like me just now...
Cause he dint say anything , he just said
" I never wanted a relationship with anyone"
And wailum told me : 

  • din say anything

  • doesnt means tht he dun like u le

  • mayb he dun wan hurt u

  • leh?

But, if really true it's like this , I rather wan WE solve this problem together
But not HIM heself who takes the play and call me to give up on him
Both sides gotta hurt... 

If you think this's going to give up on you ...
You're wrong. Cause I'm not gonna fullfil what u expected to be. 

Im going to wait you...
unless you say , you don't like me anymore.
That will do... I suppose.


No matter how hurtful your message
I always remind myself, i got to be tough...









Some answers I've been expecting...
Do you still like me? 
Answer :  __________ .