Saturday, June 9

Just updating

Actually going Pavillion today , but didnt go ady

Tired , and then become no mood go already

Yesterday almost 2.30 sleep, cause watch Music Bank.

Was waiting SNSD TTS sing Twinkle,

last only come out sing de *yawnssss

Nevermind, worth!

Hope Alyssa and Lele have fun at Pavillion!


Ugh, sejarah folio not yet do correction.

Dont know how to do also, and mostly lazy!

And first time eat chelan cherry , sweet chrunchy :D

I know I very 大惊小怪 -.- 

Hmmm, sms with Jb alot. Cause bored + 1sen per text

Friend call me must be happier, 

suggest me hangout and text more with friends...

So I wont keep think certain things...

Nothing much to sayy. 



#Will I ever be the same again?

Thursday, June 7

Im still okay.

他电话被没收了  闲咯。

Meanss cant text. z

I thought his phone will be off and i keep send messages...

Luckily I stopped if not keep write my feelings lol. 

If feels great keep sending messages to some phone

And it wont reply, it's like 不会闷在心里

一直狂 send, 满爽的 .

他昨天的那一句  弄得我心情蛮好的

Haihhh. 

没关系。加油加油加油!

做回自己,不要被打败,还有兄弟姐妹们啊

Gambatehhh. Add oil. Hwaiting ! 


死人头!一直讲他不喜欢我了 

你讲你的直觉很准? 我不信你咯

我...不信 > <  哼!

讨厌啦... 一直泼我冷水


Hope you have a Good-night & sweet dreamss.

and a good day tomorrow!


#Wonder If you miss me  like I do.










Monday, June 4

努力的

我想我应该  应该不会爱你

为了要努力  努力的不爱你

所以我让自己那么喜欢你

这样你就不忍心和我分离

我想我讨厌  讨厌冷漠的你

也讨厌美好  美好的那个你

于是我要自己假装不哭泣

所以你才能继续地走下去

我必须说我真的不会喜欢你

我不喜欢你占据我所有思绪

连你的微笑我一直牢记

从早安后的早餐到晚餐后的晚安

别笑了  别笑了  我不会喜欢你

我放过了  我解脱了 你还是在我的眼里

我喜欢了  我厌倦了  影响不了我的呼吸

原来我已经无法自拔  我秘密的爱上你

你不必懂  我真的不会喜欢你

我不想要你因为我乱了情绪

有你的城市下雨也美丽  连黎明后的太阳都像夜里的夜光

别笑了  别笑了  我不会喜欢你

别想了 别想了 我不会喜欢你。




Saturday, June 2

Im crazy


I **** YOU I **** YOU

OMG :(

最近都在听一些个歌

超好听   Inspiring :O 

Written in the stars - Tinie Tempar&Eric Turner

Burns - Jason Chen 

旋转门- Aggie 

还是会- 韦礼安

Usher - climax

Die in your arms - Justin Bieber <3

` If i could just die in your armss, I wouldnt mind 


全部听了超有 Feel 的。

尤其是歌词

我想我应该有伤到你吧 ... hor?

看你面子书的状态,应该是吧

看了都 ... *  *  :(

可是我不能做什么啊...

我去安慰你咩 .______. ?

我都知道是我啦  很 awkward 的嘛

我们也很少讯息了

好 *  * 哦 :(

* * 啊~~~~~~~~~~ :((((

Said move on, what Im doing now?

I kept on looking back and this face :( starts

But I've said became friendss. 

Maybe that's the right choice? Maybe...

I think maybe he's doing fine now?

Hmm...

只能牵挂 ... So  LALALA so much.

Guess you dk what my LALALA means *






#ImSoLostInLove










Thursday, May 31

Damn? =X

Yer, walao.
Facebook, click pictures. click click click
Click dao his. Looked many photos
Stared quite long , hmm...
damn. damn. damn.
I use my hand go and touch the freaking screen
And I freaking go and miss him.
Freaking. But it's the truth lol.
I **** *** and ** ***** .
Haiz.
Damn damn damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Stay cool and calm Carmen.
Yeaa, stable... stable. NOT STABLE.
Okay gonna hug my soft Chibi or bolster. -______-
Am gonna get stable.
Well, 10 more minutes and is 5 am.
Stay up late so long, dont know what for.
Tomorrow what time wake up?
Maybeee, afternoon? lol
Text with you, also dont know what to start.
Awkwardddddd !
Try be natural then .____.
Okayyyyyy I freaking go and look and touch again.
-_______________________-
Fine. touch touch touch :DD
Hahahaa.
Good night, sweet dreamsss.
All of YOU.



Tuesday, May 29

决定

终于我踏出了那一步

就是选择放开... 

*可想了很久 很久 很久很久 TMD*

我好好好喜欢他

不忍心看着他每一天

都很多东西想

烦恼这个  烦恼那个的 

自从我们在一起之后

好像伤心多过开心的

当然,开心的回忆

永远都不会变的

我和他的回忆没人体会到的

想回去,还真的很甜蜜

在 Mines。在Alyssa家。学校下雨的那天。

在BK5。在教师节那天。 

* hehe :B

我们彼此都需要时间放空自己 

在这几个月里,我们都受了委屈

亲爱的,让你辛苦了

在这时段,希望你能开心地

渡过你的假期和每一天 :)

`Best wishes. And all the best